The Start of a New Journey

It's been such a long time since the last time I blogged. Kinda feels rusty trying to pen down my thoughts at the moment. Such a similar experience to when I tried to do a proper examination while being examined during bedside teaching today. It's been such a long time since I'd last practiced clinical examination.

What triggered me to start blogging again is that all the similar feelings of stress and anxiety are rushing back again since I'd started the masters programme and I needed another outlet to release them. It's the same feeling of what ifs...... What if I lose my motivation? What if I'm studying the wrong materials? What if I don't have enough time to study? What if I fail and get kicked out? What if......I'm worrying too much!

It's such a mixed feeling when I got my results that I passed the theory exam and interview. Initially I was happy that I manage to pass the first round of screening which was the theory exam, then followed by the nerve wrecking interview which wasn't as bad as I imagined it to be. Then there was the stressful period of packing up my things and moving from Kulim back to KL. At least I managed to squeeze a trip to Ho Chi Minh right before I started the programme. So there's no regrets there.

2 weeks into the programme, I'm starting to miss my peaceful routine which I've established for the past 3 years in Kulim. I can't wait to settle down and get used to the new working and studying environment. The adaptation period is one of the hardest things for me that's why I'm reluctant to move out of my comfort zone but somehow the need to progress has made me take this drastic step.

Live without regrets, as long as I've tried my best. This, I'll have to keep reminding myself whenever I feel the struggle is too much. Hopefully I'll be well adapted soon.