Random ramblings

How I wish that I can make time stop and then I'll be able to sleep a little longer, play a little more, just so that I have had enough mental preparation to face the responsibilities of tomorrow.

The ability to be able to go back in time would be great too, reliving those carefree moments, re-experiencing the joys of yesterdays.

Recently, I've been having these worries that I'm nearing the tipping point of giving up. The temptation to just forget all responsibilities and walk out on my job is so great. All this is caused by the lack of job satisfaction, pressure at work, seeing so much injustice going on, unequal distribution of responsibilities. Can I not go to work tomorrow??? What if I'd chosen a different profession? Would I have earned more and experienced a better quality of life? It'll be so depressing if that were the case.

I hate this part of me where I don't adapt to change that well. One thing bad about work at the moment is that we get rotated every so often. I do take a long time to settle down in a routine, getting to know the team that I work with. Once I'd established my comfort zone, suddenly, I'm due to change over to a totally different environment and team. Haih.......

Enough of these ramblings. I guess I just need to get it off my chest. Still, the disinhibition tendency is brewing inside of me.

Finally, the start of the shift system

Last Friday, our team leader gathered some of us to decide on the working hours that we would like to be implemented when the shift system officially starts in September. Hooray!!! Finally, after all that complaint and sufferings we went through. We'll officially be humans working as doctors and not robots.

One major issue faced in UMMC is that we have not enough manpower for the shift system to go smoothly. It'll be so unfair if we were forced to do double shifts and not get paid overtime or oncall allowance due to lack of houseman. Each rotation will require at least 15 more houseman for this to go smoothly, that's not even taking into consideration if some had to take emergency leave or would like to go on annual leave. I seriously don't know how will it go. It's going to be chaotic for the first few weeks, but hopefully things will fall into place.

Another issue that I'm worried is that colleagues from the previous shift will pass over a mountain of work to the next houseman taking over due to laziness, incompetency, you name it. With the current oncall system, we're still facing it, so, I don't think there'll be any difference.

At the moment, I'm losing motivation to work. I'm not as enthusiastic, not as keen, not as generous as I would like myself to be, as there are colleagues who get away with such irresponsibility and both of us still get the same pay. So, why should I do more increasing my chances of making mistakes in the process and risk more lives? I hate people who are already so slow, lazy and good in skiving but is still so calculative. Maybe I should start being as calculative. I am going to be a lazy and stupid houseman from now on thus ending up with less responsibilities and life will be peaceful.

Weddings in July

 July is really a popular month for weddings. I've attended two so far, one at the beginning and another at the end.

Saleena and Fariz:

  

One of my colleague's from Orthopaedics wedding held at Shah Alam Concorde Hotel. It was really funny on the way there as I mistakenly chose the non-toll way to Shah Alam and my GPS took us all the way to Little India, make a big turn back to Midvalley which getting caught in a really bad jam and in the end we managed to get there just in time before the bride and groom walks into the hall.

 The new couple. Congratulations!

 The delicious main course that night served with Nasi Briyani.

 Desserts

 Goodness, I was postcall that day. I looked so tired.

 The guys.

 Rashidah and Mujaheed:

 A fairytale garden wedding in Malaysia. We were lucky that the weather permitted. I just found out that it was chocolate jam in the jar.

 Beautifully decorated layout in the garden.

 Mini reunion!!!!! Haven't seen H and M for such a long time. At least we still look as young as before. Hehehehe.

 Here comes the bride and bridegroom.

 Food to fatten us up that night.

 Caramel cream for desserts.

 Chocolate muffins!

The really nice teh tarik pulled on the spot.

 I almost dropped my cup of teh tarik when the fireworks went off.

 Saw my colleague H.

 The king and queen of the day.

 I love the beautifully decorated tents with the blue and purple theme.

 I wonder if those prawns can be eaten.

 And the fruits too or are they meant to be for decoration only. Hmmmm...

Ok, spot the difference:

 Picture 1

Picture 2. Hahahaha.....the bride and groom are more sporting than the guests.

Weddings are such beautiful events bringing two people together. May there be many happy days ahead for the both of you.

Next up will be another food blog before I forget where I had them.

If I'd chosen to take the road less taken by, I'll be traveling around the world, experiencing new cultures and scenes, eating, blogging, and of course, hibernating before the next adventure.