To continue chasing this dream or give up?

Recently, there was an advertisement on a Japan exchange programme for 2 Liverpool students to conduct their electives in Japan with all expenses paid for. It is really tempting and since coming across this advert, I kept on day dreaming about it.

It will be conducted where 2 Japanese students will act as hosts during the 4 weeks of electives in Japan in the month of July, and they will follow you back to Liverpool for their 4 weeks of electives in August where you will act as their host.

I mean, I wouldn't mind bringing them around UK as I am keen on exploring the country myself. I am so curious about Japan too as I haven't been there before. Plus, I'm really into anime, Japanese movies, etc. Hear and seen so much from the media but to be there yourself, what a new experience it will be.

The dilemma is, I haven't been back last summer, and I will be away from home for 2 years this coming summer. Do I miss home? Hmmmm....difficult question.

Come to think of it, would the Japanese student want a Malaysian to bring them around UK? With the language barrier, will I be able to do much over in Japan? Most importantly, am I wasting my time putting in effort in applying for this?

Haven't been to Japan. I was actually at Japan Fair in Manchester last year with Pei Lian

I was on the verge of giving up after considering all these factors last night. But my heart still didn't want to give up. So, I dropped by the Division of Haematology this afternoon after meeting my convenor for SSM5 to enquire about the application.

My hope lifted when the lady in-charge of advertising told me that she didn't see why can't International students apply for this as well. The documents which I need to submit were just a covering letter and my CV. Later on, the selected applicants will be called for an interview.

This got me thinking really hard. I was happy that there was a chance, even if it was a slight one that I might get it. However, if I really did, then I don't know when will I be able to see my family, when will I get to eat Malaysia food, when will I be able to get pampered at home, the list just goes on. There will be problems of accommodation in August, when I get back, will I be able to survive in a place where I cannot really communicate easily for 4 weeks? Am I capable of becoming a good host?

So many things to think, so many dreams to dream about as well. Should I chase this dream? Or should I just give up? I think for the time being, let me sleep first, think later.